Let me fill you in.

Fuck.
Thats it. Thats the conclusion you'll get from this post.
YESS. I am venting out my anger here. I am venting out my anger anywhere and everywhere I can reach.
Except Facebook. I'm pretty save in Blogger.

Oh well, this year I got into 2A. HAHAHA.
A pathetic excuse for a class.
All everybody do is read! SHYT.
Those from 1B are like, ahem, the noisiest.
Whatever, those arent really the cause of my anger.

So, well, theres this girl from my class, whom I knew since last year.
How should I say it eh?
I try to avoid her as much as possible, yes?
I wouldnt talk to her by any chance?
I stinking hate her?
Aah... All three.
I havent mention her before, whatever, I'm telling you, my lonely blog now.
SHE is a freaking narcissistic. Narcissism fills her entire head.
*note that I'm using SHE, so its not that two lengluis sitting behind me. HAHAHA.
'Oh, I'm so freaking fat, I wanna lose weight'
'Oh, you're so pretty'
'Oh, no, not the canteen, I'm on diet'
'Yerr, why you so thin one? I wanna be like you'
'Taylor Swift is so thin. I wanna be like her'
FUCK.
SERIOUSLY!? Her waist area is like, 5cm thinner than mine, and I am 30 cm.
SHE'S got no FREAKING figure! She is already flat.
WHAT!? You wanna be thinner?
I am pretty sure that you're so-called diet is actually eating away you're health. Do you think so?
You are freaking pale!
Do you really think that all boys like thin girls? Thin as in the thin you're trying to acheive!?
AAH! MY HEAD WILL EXPLODE IF I HEAR YOU SAYING URSELF FAT AGAIN!

Oh yeah, and why do I have an idea that u're trying to come into my social group?
AHEM, we do sports. Unlike you.
Sources report (gosh, I love my english) that you've been avoiding ur usual social group since we, 1B-ians came to A.
Naturally, 1B-ians are ruling 2A. No surprise there.
And I see that you've been ditching ur usual library hang-out to the 1B-ians hang out in the pondok.
Why do I feel that you are trying to join us to get famous?
Aww, c'mon, you're famous enough.
You hang out with Ketua Pengawas.
People love you since you always compliment people with ur 'oh, you're skinny' or 'lengluis'
Why do you need us?
FURK OFF.

And please, do stop pretending that you're really that good in English.
Ehem, you need to improve.
You mis-use alot of words in ur blog, yea know that?
'The earth is belongs to us'
Do I even need to point it out?
TSK TSK.

So, please, stop whining about ur 25cm waist,
or about how you cant find any clothes that suites you in the children department(GROW UP, YOU'RE 14!),
and start improving ur fucking english.

RAN-DOMMMM

DO YOU KNOW that the one who played the professor in The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe also plays Horace Slughorn in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince?
DO YOU KNOW that the actor who played William 'Bill' Weasley is the son of the actor who plays Alastor 'Mad-Eye' Moody?
DO YOU KNOW that the actor who plays Alastor 'Mad-Eye' Moody is actually a good friend of Liam Neeson, the voice of Aslan in Narnia?
DO YOU KNOW that both actor who played Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore are Irish?

TEEHEE. Fun facts. :)

Anyway, Avril asked me to go teman her to her church BBQ...
Too bad, the chances I get to go is like... nil?
): Religious view.


FORGET THAT, I WANT TO WATCH NARNIA DY!!!
Its next week, I cant wait for it!!!
I so wanna see Ben Barnes acting as King Caspian X but I just hope that he'll drop that stupid fake accent
-,-
OH YEAH.
DO YOU KNOW that Ben Barnes is actually 29 years old this year BUT King Caspian X in the film and book is actually 13 years old =O
AND he is actually marrying Ramandu's daughter.
Wow.


you know, this year end I told myself to study for next year (as we already got our text books)
so that I will get excellent marks next year :)
I'll try though.
Focusing on Geo, Science, Sej and MATHS.

and,
now that its holiday, I've got more chances to improve my BALLET!
well, heheh, last year UPSR I kinda slack off lar...
but nw its different!
I'm now grade 6 and teacher's combined us with those girls that was in INTERMIDIATE
like, a grade higher.
so i'm kinda stressed out... I know they're nice, but honestly,
sometimes the way they look at me is pretty scary...
:x


oh well.

NARNIA and HARRY!

Now, there is a basic thing about me
I love Narnia and Harry Potter.
Any film, not matter what is on,
I'll always choose Narnia/Harry over the others.

why am I saying this?
well, becuz that both NARNIA and HARRY will be airing in Malaysia this HOLIDAYS!!!
HARRY = 17th NOVEMBER (today)
NARNIA = 3rd DISEMBER
!!!!!!

Man, my mom must let me watch these two.
She just know that they are my fav movies of all time
I rewatch Chornicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe over and over again
Begged my mom to buy me the Prince Caspian (ended up getting it from my cousin :] )
Well, Harry Potter, lets just say I was so addicted that I wanted to watch two HP movies in a row( at night, and a HP movie is damn long) but unfortunately was stopped by my mom.
She even need to confisticate the HP DVD to start me on my chores =)
TeeHee.
I own the full HP series, and also 2 other books that are related (Tales of Beedle the Bard something like that ._. and Fantastic Beast and where to Find Them)
*its been long since I read them so I forgotten the tittles =P

Honestly, I'm a huge fan of them.
Eventhough I do not own a single NARNIA book, but yes, I'm a loyal fan
No matter how bad Daniel Radcliffe's acting skills are, I will still watch it
So yeah.
Im a fan.

You see, I consider myself a European.
I love European countries over America (no idea why but yeah)
My fav will be Ireland
Both of my fav movies are UK movies
And UK is a European Country.
Even my fav actor (Hugh Laurie) is British
:)
I wanna be european. x)

Well, I'm pretty sure I wont be dissapointed by HP this time like the last time (Half-Blood Prince, but I understand that Half-Blood Prince is where they intriduce one of the most important thing in the story, the Hocrux, so maybe it is supposed to be boring)
Critics have it that it is an amazing film adaption of the book series
So I really cant wait
And Narnia with those scenery and music and those magical creatures (with the help of modern days technology of course)
I'm pretty sure I'll still be hooked no matter what :)

You see, HP and Narnia aint like the TS (Twilight Saga)
They teach us moral values
while TS teaches us how important it is for us to have boyfriends and that to be like Bella, we have to be torn between two 'mens', one which can sparkle and another which, despite the male thinking having more hair on their body is considered 'manly', have a ridiculously amount of hair that may sometimes scare women away.
Seriously, not much women can wake up and find herself next to a head-to-toe hairy man,
therefore, I strongly believe that people who can stay in their seats without the urge to run to the washroom after seeing R. Patz half-nakedm they can pretty much stay in their seat for the whole time when Narnia/ HP is playing.

That'll be it.
Ciao.

migraine ):

today started just like any other day
woke up in the morning by dad
blah blah blah
the only thing special is that i have stomachaches that i believe is from the night before
so i decided to skip breakfast
watch tv then suddenly i got this extremely painful headache

i thought it was just something from an empty stomach
so i ate some rice
nothing happened
the pain presist on the half upper side of my head
i dont feel like shoving any more food down my throat
i felt like throwing up anytime
i dont want to do the housework i'm instructed
the minute i lean my head on something, its okay;
the minute i lift up my head, pain
i didnt feel like watching anymore tv
i switch off the music i was listening
getting myself outside to hang the clothes was very very hard
the pain on my head got very very serious
my mom told me to take paracetamol
i cant take the sunlight from outside
closed all doors and lay on the couch to sleep

i got all okay
until i woke up
i though i have the appetite to eat again
got up, re-heat the rice
headache again
forced  myself to stay awake by watching glee
failed
turn off the tv and pulled all curtains to block sunlight
slept again
until my mom woke me up around 1730...
she told me i am having migraine.

'Migraine is a neurological syndrome characterized by altered bodily perceptions, severe headaches, and nausea.'
i got it from wikipedia.
i've repeated the word 'headache' several times just now
nausea will be a sensation of unease and discomfort in the upper stomach with an urge to vomit
which i also faced

indicating that what i had (or what i AM HAVING, yes, i still have headaches) IS migraine isnt really what i wanted as a gift for hetting good results in exams
i prefer my own notebook or a apple product or cash to buy clothing
NOT MIGRAINE AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE!

something i found in the wikipedia:
TRIGGERS FOR MIGRAINE
Migraine attacks may be triggered by:


-Alcohol
-Allergic reactions
-Bright lights
-Certain odors or perfumes
-Changes in hormone levels (which can occur during a woman's menstrual cycle or with the use of birth control pills)
-Changes in sleep patterns
-Exercise
-Loud noises
-Missed meals
-Physical or emotional stress
-Smoking or exposure to smoke
Certain foods and preservatives in foods may trigger migraines in some people...This list may not include all triggers...


– MedlinePlus medical encyclopedia

hmm ... let me see
-i took a sip of my mom's irish baileys last night
-i am known to have allergic reactions to almost everything in the world
-the sun was shining very brightly today
-odors and perfumes are usual stuff
*i'm not having my period
-i selpt late last nght due to my end-of-year emotions (refer to last blog post)
-i've been dancing a lot lately
-tv, handphone, neighbour's vehicle
-skipped breakfast
-stress, depressions etc. etc., you name it
-smoke due to neighbour vehicle
other than the 'changes in menstrual cycle' thing, i practically got everything on the list
:(
 
SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS FOR MIGRAINE
1.The prodrome, which occurs hours or days before the headache.

2.The aura, which immediately precedes the headache.
3.The pain phase, also known as headache phase.
4.The postdrome.
The prodrome includes altered mood, irritability, depression, fatigue, yawning, excessive sleepiness, craving for food, stiff muscles especially in the neck, hot ears, constipation or diarrhea, increased urination, and other visceral symptoms.
Aura:
"Symptoms of migraine aura can be visual, sensory, or motor in nature.

Visual aura is the most common of the neurological events. There is a disturbance of vision consisting usually of unformed flashes of white and/or black or rarely of multicolored lights (photopsia) or formations of dazzling zigzag lines (scintillating scotoma; often arranged like the battlements of a castle, hence the alternative terms "fortification spectra" or "teichopsia"). Some patients complain of blurred or shimmering or cloudy vision, as though they were looking through thick or smoked glass, or, in some cases, tunnel vision and hemianopsia."
I had a little bit of visual aura today, i saw blurry things but just for a while. now that i read this, i realise that i had my first aura when i was 12 in primary school. suddenly, everything in front of me just went completely white. I also had aura (everything turned white) during hari sukan this year, which caused daniel to call me 'kenanga yang pengsan'. wow, i never knew i've already had it so early :(
Yes, I had headache, not the first time i mentioned it.
Yes, i'm also having postdrome now.

DIAGNOSIS FOR MIGRAINE
Migraines are underdiagnosed and often misdiagnosed. The diagnosis of migraine without aura, according to the International Headache Society, can be made according to the following criteria, the "5, 4, 3, 2, 1 criteria:



-5 or more attacks. [For migraine with aura, only two attacks are sufficient for diagnosis]
-4 hours to 3 days in duration.
-2 or more of the following:
  -Unilateral (affecting half the head);
  -Pulsating;
  -"Moderate or severe pain intensity";
  -"Aggravation by or causing avoidance of routine physical activity".
-1 or more of the following:
  -"Nausea and/or vomiting";  
  -Sensitivity to both light (photophobia) and sound (phonophobia).

So basically, I have migraine
as a matter in fact, i'm still having it now after hours.
which, well, is normal for someone having migraine.
but i dont think that having migraine for someone as young as 12 is normal.
let me list down the times i'm pretty i was having migraine:
1. During assembly in primary school when 12 years old (Had visual aura)
2. During sports day this year (13 years old) bcuz i skipped breakfast (had visual aura long than the first time)
3. Once in assembly this year also, the aura was fast and i had a wee bit feeling of headache
4. Today, the worst i've ever gotten. Yet.

Its not comforting. I'm having depressions now (postdrome).

*those in blue means i've got it from wikipedia
*those in red means things i've experienced
*those in green are just titles

To know more, visit http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Migraine

regrets.

another year had passed by.
naturally, there are people that you would love to hate and also people that you have bond over the years that grew so close, you'll miss each other after few days not meeting.
well, I do have a few people that I feel of that.
wei sian, kai lun, avril, li wen, cherise...
some awesome form 5s who were very nice to me :)
oh, how much i'll miss them.

i havent grew very close with the form 5s of course as there is a huge gap between our age
but the way they treated me, I dont think i will ever get it from an seniors/older friend
the sarcastic chern wei that oh so happen to have the same birthday as I do,
the sometimes scray ben-jie with that... facial hair?
that kind hearted edbert that always get attacked by his "friends"
the daniel that just cant get enough of bullying wei sian xD
and CHERYL that has been so friedly to me since the first day I attended CF.

i am so full ofregrets right now, for i didnt say goodbye in the most proper way,
i didnt even bother with them.
but, i'm currently mourning for the fact i did not spend the time we had together in the best way (wow, i sound so cheesy)
oh well.
i do wish them all the best and good luck for whatever standing in their way in their journey to reach their goals :)

other than that, eventhough it isnt the end-of-the-world for me and her,
but i surely will miss her when she go to other class...
who am i talking about?
WEI SIAN lah stupid.
that girl had been the joy of the class, always doing silly things that cheers people up :)
no group is complete without her, and my group, which consist, until today, of me, cherise, avril, wei sian, etc. etc., will not be complete again,
as we ae bout to lose one of our member.
and in a group, evry member is counted as important, as a valuable thing to the group.
one less member, and we'll be counted as incomplete.

:)
i still remember the first time i talked to her
we were in the hall for some stupid presentation about the school
i got so freaking bored and i did not bring my watch, so i asked her the time.
her facial expression was beyond words can say.
by the look of it, it was like as if she just saw a godzilla.
hah. funny (:

oh, next year, i wonder what will be in for me





fullstop

:)

I've developed a liking of boys with great smile :)

That killer smile always manage to capture my heart

shh... don't tell anyone ;)

drama-mama

honestly
why is so many people making such a big deal over teacher's
'having fun'
words can confuse you
you can always mistaken someone's word

yeah
i was a little angry when he said 'having fun'
but then i tought
maybe he said the wrong word,
i mean, anything is possible right?
and people tend to make mistakes sometimes
so just forgive and forget lar.

what you did kinda make me think that you're just being a drama-mama
so that you can boost your popularity stuff like that.
honestly, it cant.
it'll just annoy people as they tried to make you see the good side of things and forget about the bad
so yeah.
you said maybe not liking it is your problem,
and with me thinking you're a drama-mama is also my problem
HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT NOW HUH!?

i really think you're trying to get people's attention
look at your page!
there are over 4 post about that damn mistake a teacher made!
'FEEL LIKE KILLING SOMEONE'
'FEEL VERY ANGRY'
'FUN!? I'LL GIVE YOU SOME FUN'
'IF THERE WERE KNIVES THERE, THEN I WOULD'VE SHOWED YOU SOME FUN'
dont you feel bored flooding your wall with the same damn thing that really isnt a big deal?
alright, you're angry at the teacher for some F*CKING WORDS he used
then you surely cant blame him for
BEING ANGRY CUZ YOU ALL ARE SO DAMN OBSESS WITH YOUR FREAKING MARKS THAT YOUR WILLING TO SQUAD UP AND DOWN FOR 70+ TIMES WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANT DO IT AND MAKING YOUR OWN LEGS JELLY-LIKE AND COMPLAINING IT OVER FACEBOOK FOR THE WHOLE BLOODY WEEKEND.

he sure got his faults.
that aint a way for pupil to gain marks for their seni.
so? he learned his lessons.
pn.p gave him a real good talk i'm pretty sure bout that.
have you learned YOUR'S?
NOT DOING SOME F*CKING THING AND PASSING LIMITS IF YOU'RE JUST GONNA COMPLAIN ABOUT IT FOR YOUR WHOLE DAMN LIFE!
sheesh.
honestly, he aint really a bad teacher.
he did insist that you stop when you really cant take it, didnt he?
he did allow us to have pj since we've been craving for it, didnt he?
SO JUST DO SOMETHING GOOD IN UR WHOLE SORRY LIFE BY FORGIVING A TEACHER LAR!



maybe you're just wanting *things too bad that you're willing to do this.

*things, as in popularity, fame.